A Balloon Full Of Emotions In A World Full Of Pins

It’s simple. We are a balloon filled with emotions in a world full of pins. Yes, I’m talking about you, because everything excites you and you wear your heart on your tongue. That is of course what characterizes you. You stand out because you are so sensitive.

But  you pay a price for being so emotional. Your worries, your emotions and how you feel never stop. They stay with you through thick and thin.

And then there are the pins that puncture your balloon, causing your emotions to shoot everywhere. They don’t understand that your skin is fragile and that if they get close they cause an explosion, an irreparable break. You try to control your emotions, but you don’t always succeed, just occasionally. And you make sure that no one steps on your emotions, of course, because then you would lose a part of yourself and you have to put together another puzzle.

Every time you get pricked by a pin, you have to rebuild the balloon, a little stronger this time. You know that sooner or later you will encounter another pin that will destroy it, but  this pin has to come a little closer.

“I put my balloon in a balloon. That way I will protect myself,” you  think. And so you keep adding layers to protect yourself from the outside world. Like being an onion.

Every time you say you will never let yourself be hurt again, yet every time a pin penetrates your balloon. And we’re back at the beginning.

This time,  paint each balloon a different color and write a few words for  everyone to see:

1. I’m always okay, there’s nothing wrong

Denying our feelings is one of the most common tactics. As a result  , we are no longer aware of what is happening to us and thus we think we are avoiding it.

If we are unable to describe moments in our lives in detail, it is because we no longer think about our daily lives. This, of course, has negative consequences. If we do not learn from our experiences, we will continue to make mistakes and we will not recognize ourselves in our actions.

2. I don’t need affection

Another way we armor our balloon is to avoid contact with others. This is one of the darkest strategies, because it removes us from the real world, so that we no longer participate fully in life.

Frida Kahlo said  we run the risk of being eaten inside if we hide our feelings. We want people to love us without showing vulnerability, without opening our hearts. There are hugs that can mend our broken parts, but we have to allow ourselves to be hugged.

3. I can handle anything

We tell ourselves that we have superpowers and that nothing can overwhelm us, but the reality is that  wearing a shield is difficult and limits our freedom. We ended up blowing up so many balloons that we can hang in the air and relax.

This attitude gives us an illusion of control over our emotions, but that is only an appearance. Something painful has happened, but the fear of suffering makes us hide our truth.

4. This is my personality, I am who I am

Okay, you are who you are and you defend your right to be that, but are you  speaking for yourself or for your armor? You’ve probably put on a mask, a disguise so that no one knows what’s going on inside you.

This balloon can protect you from a lot of pins. But while it can help you avoid many difficult situations, it can be a heavy burden at other times. This situation will cause more suffering than it reduces.

We protect ourselves from others, but one day we will get stuck in our armor and we won’t get out and we won’t be able to breathe. We can flee or put ourselves in the position of victim, but that does not help us. Our balloons are colored by our past, a past we have to get over.