I Don’t Love You Anymore, I Almost Forgot
It was today, after our fleeting, polite meeting, that I remembered that I don’t love you anymore. We lost everything that once made us special. Our kisses at red lights, the way we held hands as we walked, those sweet hugs… No, I don’t love you anymore.
Everything that made us dream about building a better world together is gone. The things we thought were ours and designed just for the two of us. The things we thought we could overcome… Those things now look haughtily down on us, reminding us that we just weren’t strong enough to make it.
For a moment I almost forgot what had happened. But immediately I come to and realize that we are no longer one; we are two. My mind still struggles to believe the idea and bravely tries to brighten my days with the memories of when we were together…
Even though my mind tries to trip me up, I don’t love you anymore. Our story has already come to an end. I no longer had the willpower to keep fighting for something that maybe just wasn’t for us. You couldn’t put a smile on my face anymore. I don’t love you anymore because you didn’t add anything to my story.
Everything we experienced had its time to shine
When our eyes meet again and we laugh again at that joke among us… When our special language that needs no words works again, and we remember something we experienced together. Maybe then I’ll forget. Maybe I’ll doubt myself. But then I’ll have to come back to reality and accept that everything we’ve experienced together has already had time to shine.
The past had its chance and it didn’t write a story. We were a story that ended, that we lived passionately, never rationing the love we felt. Time did not give us a moment to look ahead and see what was to come. We lived it to the fullest, both the good and the bad. And that’s exactly why I don’t love you anymore.
We will continue to meet. We will share a few more moments. But they will no longer be ours. They will no longer be filled with love and magic. These moments will not be bricks on a path we are building to something bigger, something better.
These moments will no longer be an indispensable part of my life. In my memory they will just get lost or go along with the rest of my memories. Things that aren’t worth that much anymore. ‘Cause though I sometimes forget, I don’t love you anymore.
No more saying ‘I love you’, no more love…
The time to say ‘I love you’ is behind us. The time to express our love without saying a single word is gone. Only polite kisses on the cheek and friendly greetings are left, the kind you give even when you don’t have an ounce of love in your heart.
I almost forgot I don’t love you anymore when we met… but when you told me you’re going through life with someone else now, I realized that those kisses now belong to someone else. I almost forgot, but no; I don’t love you anymore.
Now I just wish you luck. Meanwhile, I keep the little fragments of you that still belong to me. I’ll be happy with that. Even though I no longer own your ‘I love you’, I sometimes forget that I don’t love you anymore…
